Me as a writer AGAIN

As the weeks progress here in English 110, I find myself changing up my writing still a little bit. Im starting to get used to not being able to write what I want to write about. I mean I still dont really like it, but It's getting easier day by day. I am starting to be able to focus better and write more. Although, I am having alot of trouble understanding the whole concept of the Autoethnograpy. I'm sure my paper is going to suck and it's going to ruin my perfect GPA that I have going right now. I still dont have much confidence in writing what others tell me to write or anything besides my music. Im not lacking as bad as I used to though. I think as the weeks go on, I will get alot better than I am. My focus level has changed somewhat from when I first started writing though. I can't write anything in the Library at school anymore. The Librarians and helpers are all loud and disrespectful, and I can't focus at all there. I have been getting used to sleepless nights of cramming my papers in at home. Other than school, I dont have time except in the middle of the night. It's still hard for me to focus without music or someone to talk too. I have noticed that it's getting easier and easier to use descriptive words and learn to use new words that I've never had a reason to use anymore. I do think overall that I'm starting to progress in my writing styles and ability's though.